do it for the peanut butter!

My names Rosy, I'm claiming back my life from a long battle of anorexia. I've spend the last 8 months of my life in Rhodes Farm and was discharged on the 2nd of October. I've recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, and i'm currently inpatient for that in PICU. Following MM guidelines. xx

Anonymous asked: I used to live in Porthcawl! :)

Yay! That’s awesome :) xx

Anonymous asked: Mm says to not weigh yourself so I think it's a good idea to not check and just let your body find it's set point.

Ah, you have a very good point there! I’ll follow the guidelines and not look :) xx

Weight

Should I look at my weight tomorrow? I’m really curious to see how much I’ve gained since starting mm, but I’m scared it will trigger me. I think I’m strong enough for it not to bother me, but I’m not sure. What do you guys think?

Coping with Flashbacks:

1. Tell yourself that you are having a flashback, and that you are safe now.

2. Remind yourself that the worst is over. The feelings and sensations you are experiencing are memories of the past. The actual event has already occurred and you survived.

3. Breathe. When we get scared we stop breathing normally. As a result, our body begins to panic from the lack of oxygen, which in itself causes a great deal of panic feelings; pounding in the head, tightness, sweating, feeling faint, shakiness, and dizziness. When we breathe deeply enough, the panic feeling can decrease. Breathing deeply means breathing in so that your diaphragm expands. If you were to put your hand on your stomach, your stomach would push against your hand when you inhale.

4. Get grounded. This means stamping your feet on the ground to remind yourself that you have feet and can get away now if you need to. (There may have been times before when you could not get away, now you can.) Being aware of all five senses can also help you ground yourself.

5. Reorient to the present. Begin to use your five senses in the present. Look around and see the colours in the room, the shapes of things, the people near, etc. Listen to the sounds in the room: your breathing, traffic, birds, people, cars, etc. Feel your body and what is touching it: your clothes, your own arms and hands, the chair, or the floor supporting you.

6. Get in touch with your need for boundaries. Sometimes when we are having a flashback we lose the sense of where we leave off and the world begins, as if we do not have skin. Wrap yourself in a blanket, hold a pillow or stuffed animal, go to bed, sit in a closet, any way that you can feel yourself truly protected from the outside.

7. Get support. Depending on your situation you may need to be alone or may want someone near you. In either case it is important that your close ones know about flashbacks so they can help with the process, whether that means letting you be by yourself or being there with you.

8. Take the time to recover. Flashbacks can be very powerful. Give yourself time to make the transition from this powerful experience. Don’t expect yourself to jump into other activities right away. Take a nap, a warm bath, or some quiet time. Be kind and gentle with yourself. Do not beat yourself up for having a flashback.

9. Honour your experience. Appreciate yourself for having survived that horrible time. Respect your body’s need to experience a full range of feelings.

10. Be patient. It takes time to heal. It takes time to learn appropriate ways of taking care of yourself and developing effective ways of coping in the here and now. - University of Alberta, Sexual Assault Centre

Anonymous asked: In your video could you please talk about what's been going on for you lately mental health wise?

Okay sure, anything else people want to know? Xx

Anonymous asked: Do you have an australian accent? please do a video :)

I don’t know what kind of accent I have anymore, I’ll do a shot video tomorrow.. What do you want me to talk about? Xx

Anonymous asked: She'll be back out soon! She looks amazing:) I'll tell her I've heard from you?xxx

Good good :) yes tell her that I wish her all the best and keep fighting xxx

Anonymous asked: She's doing really well! Forest house psychiatric unit:) I thought you would know her, I remember she said there was a girl called rosy who came from Australia and I was like wow I follow her!xxx

I’m sad to hear she’s in hospital again :( but it’s good that she’s doing well. I hope you’re doing well too! Xxx

Anonymous asked: Do you remember a girl called pia from rhodes? I'm in a unit with her now and I think she knows you ?!

Oh my god yes! How is she? What unit are you in? Xxx

Second liquid calorie drink of the day!!

Second liquid calorie drink of the day!!